I am dumb for asking

when i committed to being the leader of cru i knew i was committing myself to some stretching. keyword some. i feel like i agreed to an inch and God has taken a mile - i loath, yet i love this. at times i ask "why me?" because i despise what's going on, and at other times because i feel so unworthy. i am so blessed, He is so good to me. i've never understood why He would choose me...me! a sinner, not a saint...one of God's chosen. why do i have a high place in His kingdom? yes, i am a sinner, but i'm saved by His grace. thank you, Jesus, for saving my life.