I still dont know where I am

I dont know why I insist on wrestling with God. Aparently I still dont understand my place yet - I am a prideful retard. Here's the story:

It all starts last fall semester. The idea: finish my ME degree in 4 years...somthing only about 5% of my peers do in this major. I was on track, until my advisor had an error in judgment that he still wont admit to. Anyway, that's another story. The point is I got off track and my new plan, notice the my part of this, was to take 16 credits this semester and next, then take 6 credits and graduate next fall. Then, I signed up for this insane class - Vibrations. It is completely impossible...even the grad student in there is having trouble keeping up. It got so bad last night that I broke down in front of some of the other Cru leaders feeling so overwhelmed, helpless, and mentally exhausted. It wasn't that I couldn't figure it out...I just dont have the time. It was a big enough pride thing to give up graduating in 4 years...now it was another pride thing to drop a course. I dont do that - I finish what I start.

LOL - stupid. Thank God for my good friends. They pray for me and care for me. They helped me realize what is more valuable than my pride - Jesus. Needless to say, I dropped the class with much dismay (I'm going old school beastie boy's on ya here...). I realized that I can committ my time to something much much more valuable - ministry :) Plus now I can live my life very very much happier and I won't fail the class. Who cares when I graduate right? Yeah, I'm still not quite over that one yet...