I am dumb for asking

when i committed to being the leader of cru i knew i was committing myself to some stretching. keyword some. i feel like i agreed to an inch and God has taken a mile - i loath, yet i love this. at times i ask "why me?" because i despise what's going on, and at other times because i feel so unworthy. i am so blessed, He is so good to me. i've never understood why He would choose me...me! a sinner, not a saint...one of God's chosen. why do i have a high place in His kingdom? yes, i am a sinner, but i'm saved by His grace. thank you, Jesus, for saving my life.

Mish mosh mash mush....thank you, very much

I'm having one of those weeks where complete thoughts are very much lacking. I kinda feel like my brain is numb from sensory overload, but I've done so little it must from sensory underload. I've sat down a few times and tried to post something, but what comes out? Bleeeeaaaahh... So, instead of making this week about one post - it will be many posts sandwiched, mixed, and strewn about in very orderly fashion that makes sense only on a train of thought sort of level.

I miss going to Sunday night Bible studies at scoey and soceyet's pad. I think the last time I went was back in March sometime. It's not like I am avioding the place, the people, or the activities - I just can't seem to get that night off. It bums me out...

I went to the Hacienda last night. It was fun (nice complex descriptor huh?). I went with one of my friends to get the $1 taco's and $2 margirita's - love cheap food and drink :) After we finished our meal we hung out with the KRZQ people for a while and ened up walking away with some free CD's - I like free stuff, it makes me happy...

More and more lately I have been feeling like I may never use my degree. I have been pretty seriously considering going on staff with Crusade. The biggest hitch for me is that my heart is for Reno in such a big way I don't think I could really put my all into it if they put me somewhere else. The UNR campus is so lost, I would really love to be able to be a full timer in the campus ministry here...

Thanks for reading my babble.
Peace out - Jamison

TGIF

Have I told you all how much I love Fridays? They're almost as good as Saturdays. I woke up this morning and drug my arse out of bed way earlier than I ever desire to do so on any day. You see, since I went to the Casting Crowns/Building 429 show last night I didn't study at all for my 10 am test, so....against the will of my body and mind I had to get up and cram for an hour this morning. You'd think with all my negativity srrounding the morning and test I'd be unhappy, but all I could think is TGIF. Not in a worldly sense of it, but in another way. This morning I couldn't stop thinking of God. I didn't just say it, I meant it..."Thank you, God, that it is Friday".

A Deleted Reference

So, a while back I posted some of my happy thoughts about going back to school. One of those I mentioned was seeing a girl (lets call her Nay) that I liked and getting to lead and serve with her in Cru. I deleted that one because I was afraid she would read it, but now that I am fairly confident she will never visit this website I would like to bring it up again...

I think girls can give me the most insight, but I'm sure some of the married dudes will have some good comments too! Last week we (Nay and I) were both invited via e-mail to a BBQ after the UNR football game this weekend. When I asked Nay if she was going I also asked if she wanted to be my date. She smiled and replied, "Yeah!" Now if you know Nay, which none of you do, she is just about the sweetest, nicest, and most postive in the world - I think she would've said "yes" even if she really wanted to say "no". I wonder if she said yes because she wanted to?!? I wonder if she has any idea how I feel about her?!?! I hope so... Someday soon I will put myself out on a limb and tell her, but first I need to think and pray more.